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 So things went from bad to worse and I ended up near breakdown point.

The exams happened and the paper was so awful I am scared of results day.

My mental health is struggling big time worrying about the outcomes and repercussions on me when the cohort are below target. They will be. Low ability group, low aspiration, me below my game and an awful paper. Thanks OCR.

We're two weeks into the school holidays and my marriage is on the rocks due to my mood bringing her down.

I was referred to as a 'mood hoover' yesterday.

Well, sorry if my lack of motivation to live is an inconvenience. (I didn't say this, there is no sympathy at all. The last time I mentioned suicidal thoughts I was told I was an attention seeker)

'In sickness and in health' ?

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